Wow. Yesterday sure was a roller coaster of emotions. Election day but also Torey's 30th birthday. I spent the day either in tears or on the verge of tears thinking about my brother. Then, the night came around and I was nervous with anticipation of the election results. I felt that Obama was going to walk away with it handily but I wasn't going to sit comfortably until it happened. It was certainly one of those moments that you will never forget...like how everyone knows exactly where they were and what they were doing when Kennedy was assassinated or on 9/11. I was watching CNN and they were counting down the seconds until the west coast polls closed. As the countdown dropped under 10 seconds Wolf Blitzer said something to the tune of, "Soon these polls will be closing and we might be able to make a bigger projection." The clock struck zero, the camera angle changed, and suddenly Blitzer was standing in front of a huge screen which projected Obama as the winner. Chills went down my spine as I couldn't believe that it finally came to fruition.
The great thing about Obama is that I feel he is a uniter. This country is deeply divided, and we need a leader who will lead for all. Only time will tell if that will happen, but I truly believe that it will. Bush's policies which were basically, "Fuck you, I'll do what I want," drove me crazy and led us to a place where a lot of the world hates us. If you traveled the world in the last few years you won't feel proud to be an American. There's a lot of hate out there for us and justifiably so considering W's foreign policy. "I has an army. You has oil. Here we come!!!"
I think it is important for all democrats to realize that this is not the end, but only the beginning. The ball is certainly in our court as we control the House, Senate, and the Presidency. Bush basically handed us this election by being entirely incapable of enacting policies which benefited the greater good, and I hope we don't do the same in the next election. I was moved by Obama's victory speech, and I think he is up to the challenge.
I was bummed to see that Prop 8 passed in California. Seriously, who the fuck thinks it is ok to tell someone else who they can marry? Why the hell are we spending money voting on this issue? I just don't get it. I want to be able to do whatever the hell I want without outside interference so I think all others deserve the same. I can't believe that liberal CA passed this measure, and I hope it is overturned in future elections. This shit really disgusts me.
After the election hoopla the wife and I went out for a drink in honor of Torey. Crown Royal please. Those who knew Torey know that he always traveled with a bottle of Crown (and usually a cooler with ice as well - lol). It is always nice to reflect on the joy that was my brother, but it's always a sad day for me and my family.
I couldn't believe how many people were driving around, honking, and hanging out their windows screaming. It was a site to behold. This country has clearly had enough of Bush's shit. This is the greatest country on the face of the earth, but we have not been acting that way. I hope that Obama restores that status and gets us back to a place where our forefathers intended us to be. Only time will tell.....
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Dear Torey
Dear Torey,
I'm writing to you on the day that would have been your 30th birthday. Writing this brings tears to my eyes since you cannot be here. You were my best friend, and my life will never be the same without you. I miss you more than words can express.
I often think of how today's events would affect you. The Titans are incredibly 8-0. Every week when they play I point to the sky and know that you are there watching the game with me. I wish so much that you could be here with me celebrating this amazing season. There's still a long way to go, but so far this season has been mind boggling.
I wish you could have been around to see Vince Young lead the Horns to the national championship. I told all your friends how psyched you would have been when the Titans drafted VY. Although he isn't our starter now, he has produced some magical plays for the Titans over the years which you would have loved.
Your son is so similar to you it's scary. Yeah, he spends a lot of time doing his hair. Same thing you did around that age. He is a beautiful kid, and he's got your temper too. Every time I think about him I wish I lived closer to him so that I can be a part of his life like I know you would want me to be. I will move back to Colorado at some point and be a bigger part of his life. For now I try to keep in touch as best as I can and be there when he needs me. I can't wait for the day when I can take him to his first Titans game. I have a son of my own now. I sometimes think about how awesome it would be to be hanging out with you and both of our kids. That would be the most amazing thing I could experience, but I know it won't happen.
Tally is doing great, and I hope you know that I am caring for her as if she is my own. Terra has had to learn that she can't be my top dog by herself anymore. She has to share that with Tally. I truly think that Tally is happy. She loved you so much, and it pains me to see her without you. Remember that one time we talked? I mentioned to you that if anything ever happened to me I wanted you to take care of Terra for me. You said the same thing to me about Tally. I know you meant it because you said the same thing to Dani. I do everything in my power to give Tally a good life. You would probably kick my ass because she is on the heavy side, but she can't do much anymore on the leg that she broke following you off the cliff that day. She is such a sweet girl and I love her with all of my heart. Terra is 14 now and obviously won't be with me forever. When she is gone I plan on showering Tally with all the love I have inside of me and letting her spend the rest of her life as someone's top dog once again. Mine. I can't believe that I have had Tally now longer than you did. I hope you can see that I am doing my best to fulfill my promise to you.
Torey, I miss you so much. I'm sitting in my office crying right now while I type this. You were an incredible brother and my best friend. No one knows what happens after death, but I feel strongly that I will share eternity with you. The bond that we had was like no other, and death cannot defeat that.
Love always,
Todd
I'm writing to you on the day that would have been your 30th birthday. Writing this brings tears to my eyes since you cannot be here. You were my best friend, and my life will never be the same without you. I miss you more than words can express.
I often think of how today's events would affect you. The Titans are incredibly 8-0. Every week when they play I point to the sky and know that you are there watching the game with me. I wish so much that you could be here with me celebrating this amazing season. There's still a long way to go, but so far this season has been mind boggling.
I wish you could have been around to see Vince Young lead the Horns to the national championship. I told all your friends how psyched you would have been when the Titans drafted VY. Although he isn't our starter now, he has produced some magical plays for the Titans over the years which you would have loved.
Your son is so similar to you it's scary. Yeah, he spends a lot of time doing his hair. Same thing you did around that age. He is a beautiful kid, and he's got your temper too. Every time I think about him I wish I lived closer to him so that I can be a part of his life like I know you would want me to be. I will move back to Colorado at some point and be a bigger part of his life. For now I try to keep in touch as best as I can and be there when he needs me. I can't wait for the day when I can take him to his first Titans game. I have a son of my own now. I sometimes think about how awesome it would be to be hanging out with you and both of our kids. That would be the most amazing thing I could experience, but I know it won't happen.
Tally is doing great, and I hope you know that I am caring for her as if she is my own. Terra has had to learn that she can't be my top dog by herself anymore. She has to share that with Tally. I truly think that Tally is happy. She loved you so much, and it pains me to see her without you. Remember that one time we talked? I mentioned to you that if anything ever happened to me I wanted you to take care of Terra for me. You said the same thing to me about Tally. I know you meant it because you said the same thing to Dani. I do everything in my power to give Tally a good life. You would probably kick my ass because she is on the heavy side, but she can't do much anymore on the leg that she broke following you off the cliff that day. She is such a sweet girl and I love her with all of my heart. Terra is 14 now and obviously won't be with me forever. When she is gone I plan on showering Tally with all the love I have inside of me and letting her spend the rest of her life as someone's top dog once again. Mine. I can't believe that I have had Tally now longer than you did. I hope you can see that I am doing my best to fulfill my promise to you.
Torey, I miss you so much. I'm sitting in my office crying right now while I type this. You were an incredible brother and my best friend. No one knows what happens after death, but I feel strongly that I will share eternity with you. The bond that we had was like no other, and death cannot defeat that.
Love always,
Todd
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